I almost said goodbye to my favorite hobby...

I was so overwhelm during the time when I learn a quite a lot in programming. I enrolled a course in a popular school just close to the place where I reside. I just realized that I can't be a plain musician through the rest of my life, if i would be, I will bringing down myself and there will be no possibilities and opportunities other than making and producing new lines of lyrics that comprise a song that I will be writing and hear some compliment from other people who hears me sing my own song but they won't give me what I need so I decided to make up my self and face another phase in my life where I will be facing a new things. I am a newbie programmer so you can't expect a lot from me yet when it comes to programming but there's one thing that I am sure of, I enjoy dealing with programming syntax and making a program by myself inside my own imaginary world where everything is possible when I think of it. Doing all these things for quite half year, I almost forgot that I am a song writer, by heart and by head, I am. It turned into a crash when I made a stare on books and brush on them almost everyday and every night dealing with program syntax and logic.Because of this, what's in my heart turned it's point to another stuff so it's quite bloody to me because I have to choose between two lines. But what ever my decision would be, one thing is for sure, I won't forgot my given talent wherever or whenever I maybe.